Ok, I was reading through some of my older journals, and I started wondering, "when the hell did I change so much?" I mean, I'm not the same person that I used to be. I guess that you could say that I've matured, but I haven't. not really anyway. I think tha tit's more appropriate to say that I've been worn down. My work is killing me. my fiance` is across the country, (yes we are still engaged, and yes I am going to go join her around the begining of next year, if not sooner. so Aribat, if you are actually interested, you will be rid of me for good) and to top things off, my job sucks more than the vacuum of space. I'm going to see my love in a few weeks. At that tyme I will be quiting my current job, and I hope to be starting a new one when I get back. and I'm really hoping that it will be a better one. it is currently 5:15am. I've been up all night, and I doubt that I'll be able to go to work today. stayed out too late with my friends (it was a 21st birthday) and we didn't get in til around 3:30. so yes I've been up the past 2 hours while everyone else has been asleep. anyway, I should go, after all, it is still early, yes? ttfn.